The Day before The Day Before Christmas :)

so this is what happened today

Patrick asked me out for dinner 

and i almost said no cuz i dun wanna send wrong signals....

but then we talked about it and it was all cool

we're just friends.. 

so he took me to this really cool place called

CHINA HOUSE

and it was sorta like a date cuz he made reservations and all... 

so this is a photo of me checking my hp for the 10th millionth time

i was waiting for the messages that never came...hmmmph... oh well...

can u see my drawing on the table cloth?

hahaha they have crayons to let to doodle... 

i love :)

and this would be the view from where i am seating... this place is really nice

this is what i ordered ... um... chicken snitchzel and sweet potato mashed... it was nice ...where i almost finished the whole thing

then we went back to new world park cuz i wanted to meet the studio staff and instructors to announce the new studio and to give them their presents :)

and our friend surprised me with these... 

tarts and candles... 

its nice cuz he remembered i liked candles and sweet stuff... 

the tarts are too nice to be eaten ler... lol

i bought everyone starbucks ice blended chocolate :)

wished i had more time to prepare more personal gifts

but this year i have been so busy :(

and also everyone got one of these....

i wanted to say.. 

you guys mean alot to me..

altho they may not believe it...

but they do

and i thought about Peter alot today...

i made this for him

cuz he was suppose to come visit...

but cant make it at the end...

oh well... 

i hope he is doing well...

i came home at almost 12am

exhausted 

then there was this call from Paragon... @.@

then i had to go out again to visit the site...

hmmm

i kuai kuai went to work 

and then came back home at 1:30pm

sigh

i hope no problems tmr 

work

you know the times when you get lazy and just decided not to do anything.
just sit in front of the tv and be in hibernation mode?

at the same time work continues to arrive in your email, hp and doorstep

they pile up and then increases the stress whilst decreasing your desire to get back to work

this is really not good

especially year end where everyone seems to be clearing their leaves and packing christmas present and going christmas shoppping

makes me wonder if i am the only one having to work...
NAH i bet there are others like me
but sure feels lonely

i like this job i think
i just get very frustrated when i cant be as productive as i could

sigh its hard to monitor and control people at the different sites...
i'm not doing a good job :( regardless of what the boss says

so here goes... today;s schedule
- paragon
- lunch with someone... i cant remember @.@
-grandview
- mbf towers
- dinner plans
- staff meeting at danzity

Lord grant me favor and joy as i do this... omgomgomgomgomg

For You

Dedicated to the One who created Dance and the Dancers

Endings and Beginnings

I looked at my neglected blog and thought 

i used to write so much when i had the old blog... 

*hmmm*

i used to have the time to do alot of things

*sniff* i am so tired... my mind and heart ... so tired

i took a break to think today

sharon told me at lunch to do it... 

to take time to think...

and so i did when i got home.. 

Another year is arriving just in a few days.

i am excited, and also afraid of what it may hold for me

i started this year very hopeful to travel, to have a better relationship, better control of my life... 

but little was i ready for the changes that i had to go through 

thinking back of all that had happen in the span of just 6 months makes my hair stand... left the relationship that i thought would be ever after... went into a job that i never ever crossed my mind.... changed how i spent my time and money... changed my perception of how to manage the studio... changed my car lol...

i was so blessed this year

really

- a new job

- good bosses

- 2 promotions and increment

- expansion of the studio

- project dance team

- new wardrobe? hehe

- new friends

i was blessed to be connected to so many new ppl... 

new year coming... i am so kin cheong u know

Short . Sweet . Significant

I really do understand

And i will learn to accept, my dear friend

:)

I trust that all things happen for a reason

God is moving fast and sure this season

Am proud of you for taking a step back from this 

and for taking a step up to be the man that He would call His

Let's trust that He will do a good work in me and you

Let's trust that He is true

The Bridegroom King

Anna gave me Josh's album for Christmas... and i absolutely adored it.

It's so funny that he actually autographed it.

This one song touched the core of my heart

and i thought i would share it with you

i guess its a girl thing where we always fantasize about our dream wedding

and the prince that will sweep us off our feet 

so when i heard this song, it put tears in my eyes

Many of us have been in such wrong relationships that put us down 

And we long to be loved and cherished and adored...

As i listened to josh's voice and the piano and string interlude...

i cannot help but feel 

loved... 

how can i not realize that my God loves me so much

so my heart sings this song to my King... 

THE BRIDGEGROOM KING

By Josh Yeoh

My heart overflows with love for only You

The King who is fair

My song will always be concerning You

The fairest among all men

How i Love You...

How i Love You...

How i Love You...

You are the bridegroom King

My eyes are undistracted as a dove's for You

The one i love

Set me as a seal upon Your heart

with love as strong as death

Come and kiss me with the kisses of Your Word

You love me so well

kiss me with the kisses of Your Word

I am ruined for anything less

"How i love You

i will wait upon You Lord

May my heart be pure before You

May my thoughts and words and actions be aligned with what You will 

May my love be as strong as Your love for me.

Kiss me with the kisses of Your Word ...."

Lord Speak to Me

Father speak to me
My ears ache to hear from You
i love you and want to know what your will is

take my hands and what i have
use it for your kingdom's path
i am happy to do whatever you will
i want to do what u want me to

please speak to me
let me hear your voice
let me see your direction
let me follow where u lead...

amen

ONE AT A TIME

i look at the stuff that screams "PENDING" on my bed, my laundry basket, my kitchen table, my workdesk, my ipad and my hp.... and i feel like collapsing ...

and yet i get so excited about new things to put on my tab... hahaha

my mind wanders to many places from the moment i wake up...

i fill my frequent mental blocks with whatsapp,drawing,  fb and blogging.... which sometimes distracts me from my actual work...

i need to FINISH things one at a time... i need to...

so now i am googling if i can find a cure for my ADD...

Have I found love?

Sometimes we question if it's real

Especially when there have been previousdisappointments

Let go and let god

Love at first sight

So I am sitting on my living room couch, staring at my blackberry..
The whatsapp alert going off now and then to signal his messages to me...
I read the last message and smiled...then I laughed
He just said he was in love with me
...
It's hilariously sweet....considering that no one had been this sweet to me for a long long time...and so proper
We have not met very long ago...
And he is so far away...
I turn to God and ask that he shows me what to do
I know you love me God and
would restore the years the locusts have eaten....

Project Dance Penang

I am proud to bring you 

PROJECT DANCE PENANG

2011

thanks to my team of hardworking and dedicated 

committee 

All Glory to God

Project

I am encouraged to meet my new team of people for project dance

I Hank God that they are on board
Can't imagine project dance at this stage of my life without them :)

Thank you god for Tracy, man on, Christine , Kelvin, anne, anna, stella....

I am really so glad to have them on board :)

Project dance Penang
I hope we do you justice

Tired

i know i could have done better
i would do better tomorrow

its always a new day...
let me do better

let me do better Lord

its time

i took deliberate time to remove them today.
few clicks and alot of waiting
browsed thru them a little

brought me back to those moments in time

but its time

life goes on without this person.

i know i did good
i know i did

and i do not feel sad to remove some memories today

its good...
i'll make more memories...

and i'll make sure they are worth keeping this time

I know

God works in amazing ways He watches over me

Peace

When a man's ways please the Lord, he maketh even his enemies to be at peace with him. ~Proverbs 16:7

Even if .....

Commitment=to tie oneself to

We live in a era of convenience now
I have always said that I was a customer of convenience
and I was proud to declare it.... Until today

I learnt about the concept of commitment...
I realize today that I have been wrong to want convenience in everything
Especially in my careers, relationships, business and even daily endeavors

Why we don't commit? The enemies of commitment
- fear
- discouragement
- complacency / indifference

Nehemiah did something in 52 days what
the rest couldn't do in many decades...
Because he had a committed team
:)
I am stirred :)
And hopeful
I do pray for and hope to meet committed people

Pastor GP shared today that
Convenience says 'only if'
But
Commitmeent says 'EVEN if'

And commitment will take you further

I want to say 'EVEN IF....
For my job
For my ministry
For my family
For the dancers?
For the studio?
:)

Hi it's me again

I made A decision not to be negative with my words online
No matter how cranky I may be

Someone said to me that the Internet is a good place to be inspiring and inspired

And I have found that to be true reading tweets from revrunwisdom and Rick Warren etc etc

So I decided to keep all my anguish to my conversations with God and praying the psalms lol

Lately I retweet what inspires me
And make it a point to be positive on my Facebook posts

Also, I stopped wandering on fb and I stopped letting other ppl's lives affect me

Whenever I feel angry , or rejected or sad
I look for something inspiring and I re-share it

It's ok
Someone holds my hand
He picks me up
He stands by me even tho I didn't do my best
He gives me strength even tho he knows I will fail again
Because he believes in me

The lord my God says he has the blue print to my life
And the bible says he has plans to prosper me and not to harm me

I want to trust
I will have faith
And I will be strong for my God gives me strength

I am sometimes afraid
And the recent past haunts me
But I know all things happen within his will

And I am in his will

another incident

i forgive
and hope to forget

It's my birthday again

time really flies by

another year
another birthday

but this year is a new beginning

when u are boss.... people dont like u anymore

i dont know

its a day i dont want to remember

but i still do...

This is Me

THE CALLING

I am a minister.
I minister to the largest mission field in the world.
I minister to children.

My calling is sure. My challenge is big. My vision is clear.
My desire is strong. My influence is eternal. My impact is critical.
My values are solid. My faith is tough. My mission is urgent.
My purpose is unmistakable. My direction is forward. My heart is genuine.
My strength is supernatural. My reward is promised.
And my God is real.

In a world of cynicism, I offer hope.
In a world of confusion, I offer truth.
In a world of immorality, I offer values.
In a world of neglect, I offer attention. In a world of abuse, I offer safety. In a world of ridicule, I offer affirmation.
In a world of division, I offer reconciliation. In a world of bitterness, I offer forgiveness.
In a world of sin, I offer salvation. In a world of hate, I offer God’s love.

I refuse to be dismayed, disengaged, disgruntled, discouraged or distracted.
Neither will I look back, stand back, fall back, go back or sit back.
I do not need applause, flattery, adulation, prestige, stature or veneration.
I do not have time for business as usual, mediocre standards, small thinking, outdated methods,
normal expectations, average results, ordinary ideas, petty disputes or low vision.
I will not give up, give in, bail out, lie down, turn over, quit or surrender.

I will pray when things look bad. I will pray when things look good.
I will move forward when others stand still.
I will trust God when obstacles arise.
I will work when the task is overwhelming.
I will get up when I fall down.

My calling is to reach boys and girls for God.
It is too serious to be taken lightly, too urgent to be postponed, too vital to be ignored, too relevant to be overlooked,
too significant to be trivialized, too eternal to be fleeting and too passionate to be quenched.

I know my mission. I know my challenge.
I also know my limitations, my weaknesses, my fears and my problems.
And I know my God.
Let others get the praise. Let the church get the blessing. Let God get the glory.

I am a minister. I minister to children.
This is who I am. This is what I do

They have forgotten

everything done has been forgotten...

selfish people

dear God i wish you would remove all these people... 

sometimes facebook tells you more than u want to know

its good to keep some blocked 

and 

its good to keep some things unknown 

i have to be stronger than i am...

i see the rejection and the fear 

but today i need to remind myself again that i am not a kid anymore

not a teenager anymore

i need to move away physically and now emotionally from this circle...

It hurts to see the people i helped just ignoring ... 

i was made this way... unlikeable

i no longer want to do things to earn acceptance... 

if God you made me this way then tell me why

and how am i suppose to go thru life this way

God

When an impossible must happen,

I put it on God's to-do list.

I need a holiday

found this in The Star newspaper

thought there is some truth to this...

i still wan a holiday

:)

some secret runaway

away from all the idiots that pollute my world.... 

DC-Sam-Fiin

iHide

i like to find a corner in some cafe where no one really goes 

read

think

daydream

hmmm

i'm not sure

Mooncake

Can u imagine?

A very sweet mommy of one of my members at the studio got me a box of these :)

its a starbucks mooncake

*heart*heart*heart*

its caramel machiato and tiramisu

me

sometimes its hard to understand yourself

your needs
your wants
your emotions

i want to get to know me more

to understand why i think the way i do
why i feel like that

....mmmm another new day

On the other side

The grass is not greener on the other side...
where the other job is
where the other guy is
where the other family
or whatever refers to the thing that you are coveting for

the grass is greener where u water it

with effort
determination
love
and God's blessings

The Studio Still Stands

i'm still here

My stash

this part of me never grew up

Curls

i went to baptain, got curls, color ....etc

makes me look more mature.. but i dont really care 

i should start looking my age 

i *heart* you :)