another incident

i forgive
and hope to forget

It's my birthday again

time really flies by

another year
another birthday

but this year is a new beginning

when u are boss.... people dont like u anymore

i dont know

its a day i dont want to remember

but i still do...

This is Me

THE CALLING

I am a minister.
I minister to the largest mission field in the world.
I minister to children.

My calling is sure. My challenge is big. My vision is clear.
My desire is strong. My influence is eternal. My impact is critical.
My values are solid. My faith is tough. My mission is urgent.
My purpose is unmistakable. My direction is forward. My heart is genuine.
My strength is supernatural. My reward is promised.
And my God is real.

In a world of cynicism, I offer hope.
In a world of confusion, I offer truth.
In a world of immorality, I offer values.
In a world of neglect, I offer attention. In a world of abuse, I offer safety. In a world of ridicule, I offer affirmation.
In a world of division, I offer reconciliation. In a world of bitterness, I offer forgiveness.
In a world of sin, I offer salvation. In a world of hate, I offer God’s love.

I refuse to be dismayed, disengaged, disgruntled, discouraged or distracted.
Neither will I look back, stand back, fall back, go back or sit back.
I do not need applause, flattery, adulation, prestige, stature or veneration.
I do not have time for business as usual, mediocre standards, small thinking, outdated methods,
normal expectations, average results, ordinary ideas, petty disputes or low vision.
I will not give up, give in, bail out, lie down, turn over, quit or surrender.

I will pray when things look bad. I will pray when things look good.
I will move forward when others stand still.
I will trust God when obstacles arise.
I will work when the task is overwhelming.
I will get up when I fall down.

My calling is to reach boys and girls for God.
It is too serious to be taken lightly, too urgent to be postponed, too vital to be ignored, too relevant to be overlooked,
too significant to be trivialized, too eternal to be fleeting and too passionate to be quenched.

I know my mission. I know my challenge.
I also know my limitations, my weaknesses, my fears and my problems.
And I know my God.
Let others get the praise. Let the church get the blessing. Let God get the glory.

I am a minister. I minister to children.
This is who I am. This is what I do

They have forgotten

everything done has been forgotten...

selfish people

dear God i wish you would remove all these people... 

sometimes facebook tells you more than u want to know

its good to keep some blocked 

and 

its good to keep some things unknown 

i have to be stronger than i am...

i see the rejection and the fear 

but today i need to remind myself again that i am not a kid anymore

not a teenager anymore

i need to move away physically and now emotionally from this circle...

It hurts to see the people i helped just ignoring ... 

i was made this way... unlikeable

i no longer want to do things to earn acceptance... 

if God you made me this way then tell me why

and how am i suppose to go thru life this way

God

When an impossible must happen,

I put it on God's to-do list.